Today, class happens to be canceled which is pretty nice. So, I haven’t really moved out of my bed all day except to wash up and grab some food. And naturally, I gravitated back to my bed so I’m sitting here warm Socal sunshine with a bowl of home-made chili and some other snacks.
Life is so amazingly good.
I’ve been really peppy and upbeat these days. It’s pretty weird.
There’s not really any particular reason for me to be so happy but I’ve been waking up feeling great recently. I expected to be in a period of mad stressing and freaking out but I’ve been good. I have no idea what I’m doing and the future has absolutely no definition and I love it.
I feel like this is the first time in my life that I haven’t had every second of every day planned out for the next five years, and even though it’s scary, it’s refreshing.
One more thing. I’ve been so fed up with the opposite gender recently. I started the new semester thinking I was only going to do three things: 1) study 2) spend as much time with friends as possible before leaving and 3) secure an internship. I was done with boys until I came back from Hong Kong and was ready to be serious.
Then, I started making certain excuses for certain people and letting myself get tangled in petty drama here and there. I let my emotions get involved, and I did stupid things and said some really dumb things to people who either did or didn’t deserve to think that I cared.
Well, no more.
I have eight more weeks until I jet halfway across the world.
None of this nonsense anymore.
I woke up this morning feeling sick and tired of all the boys who’ve been distracting me from what I really need in my life. Simplicity. Along the way, I let everything get confused and I feel like little things keep pulling at me from ten different directions, so I’m cutting it all away and focusing my attention on myself from now on.
I’m going to be 100% selfish. I care about nobody but myself starting today. Sometimes, that’s the only way to breathe. Instead of focusing on everything and everyone around you, sometimes, what we really need is to be selfish and greedy and wrapped up in only ourselves. It sounds uncaring and mean, but sometimes, when everything’s driving you insane, it can be the breakaway.
With that said, when I have epiphanies, I need to make something. Mindless movement helps me come to realizations.
So, here’s some food for thought.
I think I’d add cilantro and lime and another can of tomatoes next time though.
If you’re thinking, “Eww, beans… gross,” my roommate hates beans and said she wouldn’t the salsa but she ended up eating half the batch by herself.
So, give it a try. I promise you’ll never find an easier salsa recipe.
Spicy Bean Salsa
Yield: 12 servings
1 (15 ounce) can black-eyed peas
1 (15 ounce) can black beans, rinsed and drained
1 (15 ounce) can whole kernel corn, drained
1/2 cup chopped onion
1/2 cup chopped green bell pepper
1 (4 ounce) can diced jalapeno peppers
1 (14.5 ounce) can diced tomatoes, drained
1 cup Italian-style salad dressing
1/2 teaspoon garlic salt
In a medium bowl, combine black-eyed peas, black beans, corn, onion, green bell pepper, jalapeno peppers and tomatoes. Season with Italian-style salad dressing and garlic salt; mix well. Cover, and refrigerate overnight to blend flavors.